2020 full of tests....

Hi everyone..

I hope you are still negative from Covid-19 and #stayathome.

Today I was extremely sad. For me this year should be my happiest year as I should have my wedding in few months but seems likely I have to postponed due to this outbreak.

Its really upsetting because almost 50% of preparation was done. Not only I had to postponed my wedding, but I also couldn't top up my savings for my wedding because most of my income was from my part time work which is as a private tutor. Since we are under movement control order (MCO), I couldn't fulfill my duty. So I only depending on my monthly salary which I need to pay all my commitments.

This is really heartbreaking. But what else can we do? Nothing except to pray may all this matter finally solves.

After one problem comes another. Today I received a new that I will probably taking unpaid leave (forced) since the kindergarten I'm working at will have to shut down. This will happened until the government allow schools to operate. But the problem is, we don't know how long it will be.

So I also don't know how long I have to be under the unpaid leave. How am I going to survive? What about my commitments? Car? Rental? Foods? All this are circulating in my head right now.

This is very huge test for me. I don't know how long I can hold. I am really upset and sad. For now, I wish there will be a rainbow after all this rain. Please pray for me. And I pray may we win this war.

Have a nice day.

xoxo, ZS

It's second Ramadan.

Hello everyone!

So it's been 2 days of fasting in this Holy month. I felt grateful to celebrate Ramadan with my families. There are a few Ramadhan goals that I want to achieve such as start the 5 prayers, read Quran at least 1 page a day and be good to myself.

Actually, Ramadhan and Syawal is the happiest month for us Muslim. Coz I feel like we are connecting in this month. Connecting to our relatives and other people. But sadly, it's been 21 years I've been celebrating Ramadhan and Syawal without my mom ( Al-fatihah). I believe she is in better place now.

Sometime I feel sad and unuseful because I am not a good daughter to her. Allah is great because He hide all our bad deed. If everyone can see what He's been hiding, I'm sure everyone wouldn't want to come out of their house because of the shame.

That is why, I always want to improve myself especially during this Holy month. how about you? What are your goals? I hope you achieve you goals. Happy Fasting!

xoxo, ZS

Welcome to my blog!

Hi everyone!

This is my very first post. Nothing much to say, just a simple introduction.

I am just a girl in the mid of 20s. A kindergarten teacher somewhere in Subang. I was born in Klang but now rented a house near my workplace.

I love teaching so much. Since childhood. And alhamdulillah, I am a teacher now. Other than teaching, I love cooking and I enjoy baking. 

The purpose of creating this blog is because I also enjoy writing. I feel like I have somebody to talk to. So, I'm gonna share what I want to here!

I hope you will enjoy here. Thanks and have a good day!

xoxo, ZS.